With all the shit and drama I've been going through all semester, only one person captures and understands me. We were never really close until this semester, partly due to the fact that we are going through the same things within different scenarios. Megan and I spend countless nights at Spiderhouse talking, contemplating, and explaining why we go through what we do, why we do what we do, and how to figure out situations. What we have is quite supernatural, and I am so grateful for her everyday.

She has introduced art (she is an art major) back into my life. I have given her music. Through art and music, we can grab a sense of reality through the evokation of certain moods and creating certain atmospheres.

We have drawn each other with pastels, trying to grasp the essence of each other. She even told me that she has put some of the image of herself in my image--an artist's bias--in which she made me "wider" than I actually was. I had an artist's bias too because we are very much similar and part of each other on some spiritual level. I tried to capture her innocence and her desire to be a truly free-spirit at the same time.

Un-Special:

Ulmer says that no one is really special/unique because everyone goes through the same things. I have realized this before I read it in Ulmer; my best friend Megan and I were talking about this. My parents and my older figures (aunts/uncles/etc.) used to tell me all these things because "they went through the same thing," but I didn't ever want to listen because "they don't really know my situation." Even if you do not go through the EXACT scenarios, the experience evokes the same emotions and moods, thus creating the feeling of a shared experience.

Case in point: both Megan and I are unspecial in the sense that we both are going through the same thing at the same time.

Ulmer uses Cixous to make a point on how connections can arise to connect two images/ideas/thoughts that may seem unrelated. During this semester, I have made so any connections with all aspects of my life, through my experiences, and through the experiences of my best friend Megan.

I have had several "Stimmungs" based on her speculations of her experiences that I juxtapose with mine. In light, I have figured out more things about myself through the experiences and the eyes of another.

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